| I woke up today feeling as depressed as ever. Depressed about my weight, depressed about how much i miss my exboyfriend, depressed about how much I hate the people in my school, depressed about guys just seeing me as a piece of ass, depressed about my family not understanding this, depressed about my friends being far away, depressed about not being good enough and that everything is my fault. CW: 114 Intake- Breakfast: Cereal & Milik 300 Lunch: Sandwich 255 Snack: Granola Bar, Lollipop, & Cheese 275 Dinner: Sushi 300 Total: 1130 Outtake- Walk 4mph for 30 minutes 
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| Oh my god...I'm 117... How do you gain 7 pounds in one week? That is the definition of a fat ass, and I need to lose all the weight fast. I'm so disgusting and I feel so depressed. Why did I have to screw up so badly? I can't stand to look at myself anymore. I'm going to eat 1100 calories and exercise 5-7 days a week until I am 105 Intake:: Breakfast Milk 1 cup- 130 Oatmeal 1 packet- 160 Lunch Veggie Burger patties- 200 Ketchup-15 Snack Cheese Sticks- 120 Apple Sauce- 50 LowFat Pastrami Slices- 120 Dinner California Rolls- 300 Total= 1095 Outtake:: Walk/Jog on Treadmill- 30 minutes Yoga- 20 minutes 
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| Even though I binged again today, I exercised for 90 minutes this morning So, I guess its a step. Thinspo of the day: Keira Knightley 
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| I fucked up again today. Tomorrow things are going to change for sure. And I will be 105. I think I might just stick coins in my bra when I get weighed at the doctors. Is there any other suggestions on what I can do to trick them?
Thinspo of the day: Cheerleaders 
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| God, I hate life right now. I'm so ridiculously stressed out at school trying to comete for valedictorian. I miss my boyfriend, and I just feel like crying my eyes out everytime I seee him. I binged AGAIN for the 4th time this week and gained 5 pounds because of it. I have no friends at school I can confide in. My family thinks it's all my fault for the medical expenses from the eating disorder. I'm a screwup and a failure. I'm fat, ugly, and worthless...I'm never going to be good enough for anyone, not even myself. I wish i was just thin and I could have enough willpower. 
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